Today I want to talk about a topic that's close to my heart. It's not beauty related and could get ramble-y.
I've NEVER blended in anywhere in my life.
While I've always had a group of friends, I never felt that I was very emotionally involved with anything. I'm the kind of people who can be your best friend when we're in class/at work, but you don't know much about me. I don't like talking about my personal life. As many of you noticed (and pointed out), I don't social network and talk a lot about what's going on in my life. I just don't feel comfortable sharing stuff like that with a lot of people. Internet doesn't go away. Everything you say, everything you do could potentially turn on you in the future.
I feel horrible for saying this, but the only person who I share absolutely everything with is Nathan. That's right, I even pick and choose with the stuff I tell my mom. I love my mom, but she's the type of parents who always want to have the last word. When I tell her stuff she will always use that to teach me a lesson. While I appreciate that, at times I get overwhelmed. I've learned from experience that Nathan won't judge me and try to change me.
I've always thought that something's wrong with me. Nothing excites me, nothing intrigues me, nothing could make me care.
You know the type of people who are just sooo good at dealing with others that they just seem to effortlessly make everyone like them? Yeah, that's not me. I just simply don't care to suck up, to fake, or to lie my way to friendship. When I was little, I've tried really hard to blend in, to be "popular". As I got older, I realized how draining that way of life is. Not that I don't still want to be well-liked and popular, at this point in my 23 years of life, I simply do not care.
I don't care that some people don't like me. You can't please everyone. I've learned to be true to myself. You don't always have to be defensive, but definitely don't go out of your way to change yourself in order to fit in. That way of life will come back and bite you in the butt.
Honestly, take it from someone who's been through it all: Be true to yourself. I know it's cliche, but in the long run, your life will get easier and less stressful. Was it lonely in the beginning? A little bit. Did it get better? Absolutely.
Lastly, I leave you all with the wise words of Beauty Addict Kitty:
Have a wonderful day. Remember, always be true to yourself. If someone doesn't accept you for who you are, they'll never truly accept you.